Monday, March 2, 2009

Maybe I'm a worrier

My roomate says I worry about things too much, and that could be true,
BUT- every time I think about planning and making my senior film my stomach absolutely turns inside out. Basically, it jumps and folds inside itself until it is wrongside out and then turns to solid rock. I am excited to come up with ideas and plan and actually make the thing, but after I have a rough time with Maya, I start to panic and think that I'll never learn everything fast enough! Or I'll worry that I won't be able to find anyone to help me do it (so I'm not all by myself) because most people I know don't have ANY spare time to work on outside of class things!

I don't even have to start planning it for another year, but I feel like the pressure's on NOW to learn everything along the way so that when it comes time to use it, I will know it extra well. Plus, I am out of money and need scholarships to be able to stay at SCAD. Gotta get A's, baby!

Blah, blah blah, whine whine whine. Whatever.

1 comment:

Rose said...

Courtney. Take. A. Breath.

Your excitement to come up with ideas, and the process of putting those ideas into action is the most important part. Like I said before, Maya is just a tool. This is a learning process that you are just starting to get in to. It's going to be hard. It just is. You can't expect to just pick it up right away. You've already realized that Maya can be your worst enemy, or your best friend. You have to use it over and over again.... make mistakes, ruin things, forget to save, crash Maya... fail. You don't realize it, but every day you are getting better and better, think of where you were last quarter.

You WILL struggle. You WILL learn. You WILL master it.

Have a little faith in yourself.